10 Honest Things

Kahless gave me this.........



And with this award, I'm supposed to list 10 honest things about myself


1. I'm a perfectionist. Even though I know it's not possible to be perfect, I still strive for perfection. I am able to not hold it against myself that I can't achieve it, however, which is more than I could do 20 years ago.

2. I'm a glass is half full kind of person. I used to be a half empty person before therapy and I think this particular change has been the most important one to keep me on track.

3. I'm somewhat of a klutz. Despite the fact I've always been very athletic, I can trip over something that isn't even there.

4. Some days I just want to be lazy..........to sit in a chair, stare at the wall, be taken care of, and not have to be responsible for anything or anyone.

5. I am a hopeless romantic. There's nothing I love more than a sappy movie or book with the traditional predictable ending about life and love. I look for those kinds of stories everywhere in life. I think it's part of what keeps me going even when times get tough.

6. I can shut down and put up walls faster than anyone I know.......or probably ever will know.

7. I am very closed minded about new kinds of food. I like what I like and rarely try anything new. Boring.....................

8. As much as I love chocolate, I'm closed minded about it too. I have very specific likes and dislikes about chocolate. I tend to love very expensive chocolates and I prefer milk chocolate. I will even pass on chocolate no matter how much I crave it if it isn't what I like. Thankfully, good ole Hershey's is one of my favorites..........but I also loooooooove See's Candies about every kind of milk chocolate confection they can come up with...........oh and Boehm's Chocolates "ain't" half bad either......from there on the price tags just keep going up and up............

9. I have a love hate relationship with Christmas. I hate the shopping and having to figure out what to buy for everyone, not to mentions where in the heck I'm going to get the money to do all this shopping, but I love the look on some one's face when I have gotten them something that has really touched them.

10. I hate to look in the mirror. I will always see my mother looking back at me, no matter how hard I try not to.

11. I really like people..........although I haven't quite figured out what to do with them yet. I know that's one more than I needed but for some reason I just felt it was important to get that one in..............


So I guess I'm supposed to this on so let's see about JIP and Enola

31 Things Meme

I picked this up over at JIP's blog


1. Where is your cell phone? in my pocket

Your significant other? a pain.

3. Your hair? brown highlighted with blonde

4. Your mother? a piece of work

5. Your father? not sure

6. Your favorite thing? newborn foals...........and good chocolate

7. Your dream last night? don't remember

8. Your favorite drink? hot chocolate with lots of marshmallows

9. Your dream/goal? to be known for the amazing horses I breed

10. The room you’re in? the dining room

11. Your hobby? blogging

12. Your fear? that I will die and no one will care

13. Where do you want to be in 6 years? at the top of my game

14. What you’re not? a loser

15. Muffins? blueberry

16. One of your wish list items? the right stallion to breed to me Legs' daughters

17. Where you grew up? Seattle, WA, USA

18. The last thing you did? cough

19. What are you wearing? jeans, t-neck, denim shirt, vest

20. Favorite gadget? long lines (it's a horse thing, of course!)

21. Your pets? two cats, Squeaker and Jasmine. Will have a boxer puppy very soon.....counting the days

22. Your computer? old with a huge screen
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23. Your mood? indifferent

24. Missing someone? my friend, Caren

25. Your car? is a truck..........Ford, one ton, crew cab, extended bed, dually

26. Something you’re not wearing? shoes

27. Favorite store? any good tack store......but only if I have money

28. Like someone? myself

29. Your favorite color? I love red! Not the yellow red (clashes with my complexion) but the blue red

30. When is the last time you laughed? Yesterday when riding Vee

31. Last time you cried? On the inside, yesterday. On the outside when I told my daughter continuing would cause me great pain........she didn't care, that's why all crying is now on the inside.

If you feel like playing along, feel free to give this a try.

There's Virus Going Around and It Made Me Do Quirky Things!

For those of you who might read my horse blog as well, you will probably know that there has been a "virus" going around and that I was tagged with it there, not once but three times.

Well, now it looks like there is another virus going around and I have been tagged with it on both blogs. That's right, it's a virus that's been going around. It's called a meme and requires the infected party to post 6 little known or quirky things about themselves. To link to the person who infected them (for me that would be Prayer Mom) and then to infect six more poor unsuspecting souls commenting on their blogs to let them know they've been infected and or course, linking to the newly infected parties.

Also in case some of you haven't noticed, there has been a bit of a preoccupation with secrets going around and I'm thinking it might be a good time to alter this meme, just a little. Instead of just doing six quirky things about me, I'm going to include in my meme a secret that I haven't told anyone before. I'm hoping that maybe some of those that get this virus passed on to them might just have the courage to throw in one secret as well. It's doesn't have to be a HUGE secret, just something you wouldn't admit out loud.

OK, here goes,

1. I'm probably considered to be something of an eccentric. I'm not particularly interested in fashion, I'm more into being warm. My favorite clothes to wear to the barn are men's heavy flannel shirts.

2. I have two toes that look like they start off as one and then split partway down the middle to form two. So I guess it means I have webs between those toes. And it's like that on both feet. My feet are pretty much ugly.

3. I rock. No not like I'm a hot mama and I rock. It's more like I sit in a chair and I rock constantly. When I lay in bed I rock myself before I can go to sleep. It is a form of comfort. I've done it my whole life and my mother was appalled by it.

4. I sleep with a teddy bear and an elephant and have for about twenty years. The teddy bear's name is Teddy, of course, and the elephant's name is Ellie the Phant. I even take them with me when I travel. I have been known to share a room with an unspecting friend who had no clue I travelled with friends. I hid my toys under the covers and when the maid made the bed, she set them out on top of the pillows. So I was exposed!

5. I pick my nose. I know, you're all going EeeeewwwwwwwwW! But I swear if you had the kind of allergy problem I do, you'd resort to whatever you could to get that crap out of there. And it's really hard to teach kids not to pick their noses when mommy does.

6. I am a clutz. I can trip over dust, I swear. I fell on the ice last week and have some pretty bad bruises. But I'm used to them, I trip and fall a lot. It's a wonder I don't fall off of horses more than I do. I have fallen down leading them a few times though. Thankfully I've never been stepped on a horse in this process.


OK, that's it for me. This virus has made me so delirious that I have spilled my guts. Now it's your turn. I am passing this virus along to

Enola

Jumping In Puddles

Keepers Korner

April Optimist

Marj_Aka_Thriver

and I know I'm probably cheating here by sending this virus back to Kahless, She tagged me on the horse blog about quirks of the horses so I know she's already been infected but I'm hoping she might just spill a tiny tiny secret to help her build up to the bigger one later. But if you really don't want to you could do a silly quirkky one on Lite Kahless that would be ok too, just not nearly as therapeutic. lol Or you could just skip it. It's your call. I'll still be your friend no matter what you decide.

OK - I Give! Here's My Survivor's Meme

I’ve been tagged for a meme by Keepers at Keepers Korner .

Rules of the “Survivor Needs” Meme:

Please link back to the originating meme at Survivors Can Thrive , so people can see its origins, get ideas for their own self-care list, see who’s already been tagged, and maybe we can track how far this meme goes.

List 25 needs and 5 wants. Try to restrict your needs list to things that have to do with being a survivor of some sort of abuse, assault, etc. Your list can be anything…you want!
Use this list to remind yourself to get your needs met this the New Year.
Pass on this meme and tag five people to play this meme with you.
I need:

1.) Arabian horses in my life

2.) at least 8 hours of sleep each night

3.) to know my daughter will be taken care of after we are gone

4.) to eat healthy and drink plenty of water.

5.) to be heard

6.) to write my book

7.) a roof over my head

8.) peace

9.) to be more organized

10.) to express my anger appropriately

11.) to follow my dream

12.) to laugh

13.) to play

14.) to cry

15.) to exercise regularly

16.) to love and be loved

17.) to learn to be alone

18.) more sunlight.

19.) to be safe in dealing with the horses

20.) to take care of doing a will

21.) to have a plan for my horses if I die

22.) to be productive

23.) to learn to forgive when it's appropriate

23.) warmth

24.) to ride a horse every day if possible

25.) See's milk chocolate preferably carnels!!!!

5 WANTS

1.) A National Champion Western Pleasure Horse

2.) A boxer puppy

3.) a riding arena

4.) a tractor

5.) AND like everyone else !! I WANT to win the lottery!!!

Now we want to tag:

Kahless at Random Kahless

Lynn at Spilling Ink in Public

Katy at Her Indoors





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I've Been Tagged!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I got tagged by Marj aka Thriver with this "ABC Meme" that's going around. I'm a little late 'cause I tend to put things off and I'm not good at these things.

Okay, here goes:

A ~ Available? Nope. Married over 30 years, don't ask me how! I haven't a clue.
B ~ Best friend: My horse (I just find horses more trust worthy than people, what can I say)
C ~ Cake or pie? Pie.
D ~ Drink of choice: Water. Boring, I know! But I used to live on Coca Cola
E ~ Essential thing used every day: The phone. I cannot live without talking.
F ~ Favorite color: Red
G ~ Gummi bears or worms? Bears, the thought of worms makes me cringe.
H ~ Hometown: Seattle
I ~ Indulgence: See's Milk Chocolate Chewies and Brittles
J ~ January or February? February, my birthday and grandchildrens' too.
K ~ Kids and names: Bil, Colleen, Nick and Lindsay.
L ~ Life is incomplete without: Arabian Horses!!
M ~ Marriage date: Which time? The last Aug 28
N ~ Number of siblings: 6
O ~ Oranges or apples? Apples - nice crisp ones
P ~ Phobias/fears: Snakes
Q ~ Favorite quote: "Frankly my dear, I don't give a damn!" Rhett Butler in Gone with the Wind
R ~ Reason to smile: Newborn foals
S~ favorite Season - Spring because it's foaling season!
T ~ Tag three people: Kahless , Lynn Jumpinginpuddles
U ~ Unknown fact about me: My feet are funny looking
V ~ Vegetable you don't like: Lima beans.
W ~ Worst habit: Clenching my teeth.
X ~ X-rays you've had: finger, toe, back, chest, legs and arms
Y ~ Your favorite food: lasagna
Z ~ Zodiac: Aquarius.


On another, more important note, please keep Jumpinginpuddles in your thoughts and prayers. There was a comment on the blog from the therapist saying that things were tough and she hadn't had contact and was worried! Prayers are definitely in order.