Saturday, April 4, 2009

Decisions about Posts

Recently I've been posting things written many years ago during my therapy process. It's hard as I go through this stuff to decide what I'll post mostly because it all feels so graphic and certainly exposing to me. But, also, because I worry some about it being just "too" much for others to handle.

I guess just like back then when this garbage was coming to the surface, I was worried that no one would ever believe me. While today, I don't care for my sake if others believe me or no, I do care for those who are dealing with this crab today. I worry sometimes that it's just too unbelievable for some to comprehend and instead of dealing with their feelings about this horror they will reject it's truth.

Today, I really can deal with others rejecting that Satanism in this form really exists with all of its depravities. But there are those out there who cannot. It is them I worry about. Yet, I know there are others who need to know that they are not alone.

I think the most powerful trap of all created by the cult was that seed planted that "no one will every believe you." It doesn't take much to germinate that seed. It takes even less to keep it growing to massive proportions. Yet, choking the life out of that blood sucking vine is the only way to freedom. So I will continue to post even the most explicit and graphic content that surfaces in my old writings in the hopes that those who are able to hear the truth will.

I would appreciate if maybe some of those who "lurk" here and believe might take that extra effort and leave a brief comment for those who need to know that others believe. Support for victims is what this blog is really about. While I personally know that many more people believe than survivors dealing with Satanism can ever imagine, it would be helpful for those reading this to see "solid" evidence that people from the "real" world DO believe them!

14 comments:

jumpinginpuddles said...

we would also appreciate those comments on here also, as it helps us

Rising Rainbow said...

JIP, I'm glad that you spoke up. Maybe between the two of us we will encourage people to speak up.

Astaryth said...

I'm usually a lurker, not because I don't believe, but because I don't usually have anything to say that I feel will help. However, in this instance I do:

I believe you. There are certainly depraved people out there, and they like to prey on others that they feel they can control. I really like that by speaking out you are taking that control away from them. You are a very brave woman to open yourself up concerning something that is so emotionally tied to you!

I have never experienced any cult activity, but that doesn't mean I don't believe it exists.

Enola said...

I don't have personal, first-hand experience, bu I believe

Anonymous said...

I totally believe you guys. You are definitely not alone. Stay brave and safe. You are doing a good deed in sharing and educating. I wish I felt like I could leave "my name and address" but I can't. I am a real person though.

Ethereal Highway said...

I completely understand the 'belief factor'. I have been struggling with it, too. Sometimes when the things that happen to someone seem unusual or they are numerous, it can really make a person worry that they won't be believed. I think this is one of the things some abusers count on.

Anonymous said...

I'm a lurker and have never commented. I read your blog because your story is so compelling. I was not a victim of abuse as a child, but I have no problems believing your story, even the Satanism. Of course decent people can't fathom that anyone could hurt children that way. However, anyone who reads the paper and studies history knows that there are plenty of people in the world capable of committing horrors. I pray that if there are any children (or adults)in my life that are being abused, they would let me know and be willing to let me help them. I would believe them. One of JIP's past posts that I've thought about over and over is the one about the neighbor who saw and did nothing. Tragic! Thanks to you and JIP for the education.
Jill Noble

Donna said...

Being believed is so important, and I truly appreciate you posting difficult material. I can't always read all of it but it helps me to remember there is healing and hope, no matter what has been thrown at us. When I confronted my abuser (my older brother) I did so by writing him a long letter and sending copies to the rest of my immediate family. My father and other brother were outraged and supportive, my sister was too afraid to say anything, my mother defended her son and refused to believe a word, and the coward had his wife threaten me, but otherwise denied everything. My relationships with my mother and sister will never recover, the coward was killed in a car accident 3 years ago. It was the hardest and the bravest thing I ever did, but it was necessary. I believe.

Labyrinth said...

I absolutely believe you. I was not raised in an intergenerational cult, but the things that were done to me were definitely satanic in nature.

Satanism is real!

Marj aka Thriver said...

You go, girl! I'm proud of you. Yes, I do, indeed, believe. I've struggled with a lot of "no one will believe you" crap myself.

I did not suffer at the hands of a cult, but every therapist I've ever seen has said that they thought my father had some exposure to ritual abuse and much of his abuse/torture of me and my sister was ritualistic. Some very weird stuff. Yeah, I believe alright.

jennihart said...

I confess to lurking. Mostly because I don't feel that I have anything to contribute. Like others here, I was not abused as a child but I do believe. It's hard to fathom harming any living thing in that way but there some very depraved people in this world and I put nothing past the ability of the mind to twist things up so horribly that such acts are conceivable. I hear it from those I work with at times. I certainly hear it here and elsewhere. Too many , too often to be falsehoods. You are all so brave. Thank you.

NVRider said...

I believe you without question, though I'll admit to wishing it was not true.

I have no direct experience with this type of abuse, but I do know another survivor very well.

I'm a lurker, and an admirer of your courage. I don't post, mainly because I feel I have nothing to offer.

Kahless said...

I know that you speak truth.
I know that JIP speaks truth.

As you know, I have no first hand experience (thankfully) but I read truth in your words.

Patchesmany said...

we found you through JIP's blog- we mostly lurk as there are jsut no words, but we know it is real