Tuesday, August 19, 2008

What's Up

Kahless asked how things are going and I'm not really sure what to say........their going..........that's for sure. I seem to be exhausted all of the time and pushing myself to get through my daily stuff. I have no energy left for much of anything at the end of the day. I find myself sitting in a chair rocking and staring at the Olympics.

I think watching the Olympics is good for me. I like the individual stories of people's dreams and their tribulations trying to see them through. I think it gives me hope. Right now I could use a little hope.

My husband job ends soon. I'm trying to get this farm cleaned up for my annual open house. I've already posted on my website that I am being forced to downsize my herd and that all offers will be considered.........the very thought of what that means is killing me on the inside.

I don't know what I'll do if I don't get some horses sold soon. But at the same time, it feels like this kind of a move could really kill my dream. Between that and the stuff with my daughter and granddaughter it's a pretty scary time.

On the upside, Lindsay is doing much better. She has begun resuming her chores here. That's been a great help. There's a lot of work to be done because of the adjustments I made while she was unable to work but eventually I'll get it all caught up and at least now I'm not getting farther and farther behind.

Lindsay isn't having anymore headaches. She is still experiencing some double vision but not all of the time. I think it affects her the most when she's tired. If she's still having problems with it in another couple of weeks, I'll have to take her to the doctor to see what's happening.

A friend has been helping me with my horse. I have been having some problems teaching the horse a couple of things he really needs to know to be a successful show horse. That is going really well. It's the bright spot in my day. I am grateful for the diversion.

I really miss visiting all of my blogging buddies........but for now I just don't have the energy. Keeping a lid on that old cult programming is really exhausting. I'm hoping that I'll get out of the mire that has caused this soon but in the meantime, please know I'm thinking about all of you.


Lynn said...

I think of you a lot, too, RR. I hope things work out with the farm. I know how important it is to you.

I know what you mean about the exhaustion factor. Most people don't understand how much energy it sucks out of a person when they have to hold things down in order to function. I understand all too well. I also know what it feels like to be in a position where holding the lid on like that is the only real choice.

Be nice to yourself every chance you get, RR. I'm keeping good thoughts for you.

Tamara said...


You have been in my thoughts.

Enola said...

((Hugs)) Hate to hear about selling horses.

Lily Strange said...

Seems like a cycle of bad times for a lot of people lately. I hope that the good cycle gets here soon. Enough already!

Frazzled Farm Wife said...

I am enjoying watching the olympics too....what are your favorites?

Kahless said...


I think of you alot. I must admit I miss your presence in blogland but I would much rather you recoup and look after yourself.


keepers said...

just wanted you to know we were thinking of you

peace and blessings


Rising Rainbow said...

lynn, thanks for the support. I knew you would understand the exhaustion. I'm hoping I'll get free of this place and not have to waste so much energy this way......I hope that day will come for you too.

tamara, thanks for thinking of me.

enola, thanks for the hugs. I try not to think to much about having to sell horses in this manner. Hopefully it will work out for them and for me and my family.

lily strange, I'm with you. I think we could all use a change for the positive.

frazzled farm wife, of course I love the equestrian events that didn't get much coverage. I had really looked forward to seeing Teddy O'Connor and then he had that accident so that added a bit of sadness at the parts I saw.

Other than that I love any of the water sports and I've watched a lot of volleyball. I think the volleyball is because my oldest son is a coach and volleyball is his passion. Somehow learning more about volleyball makes me feel more connected to him.

And I really like watching any of the Olympians who have special stories about their struggle to get there. I love rooting for the underdog.

kahless, thanks, I miss connecting with you as well. Hopefully my life will settle down soon and I can catch up. However, I'm almost afraid to open my reader and see how many posts I'm behind on. That's probably going to be mind blowing.....

keepers, thanks, I've been thinking of you as well.