For Fallen Angels and Sacrificial Lambs Everywhere

*Note This post has explicit or graphic content.

Fallen Angels asked in a comment on my post, Halloween from a Cult Survivor if I would read a blog post, My Nightmare, she made two years ago. I believe from her request that Fallen Angels is struggling with accepting this as a memory and hoping it is "nothing more" than a nightmare.

I commented on that post, that what she portrayed was not just familiar to me but to others as well. Then I clarified that by others I didn't mean others inside me but other survivors of ritualistic abuse. I know a lot about survivors and their stories. It is part of what helped me to heal.

Specifically, I have had personal contact with four survivors, three in therapeutic situations and one I met at a town hall meeting on childhood abuse. In addition I have worked with a cult deprogrammer and others involved with ritual abuse victims and survivors. During the time I was working on healing from my abuse I was quite active in finding information to help me better understand the horrific events I was remembering and for validation, just like Fallen Angels is seeking now.

During that process, I encountered several individuals who were at the forefront of the disclosure of ritualistic abuse at the time. They appeared on talk shows and at seminars and meetings around the country. Those people considered me to be THE most knowledgeable survivor they had encountered. These "experts" told me personally, that I was far more knowledgeable than they were. My story filled in the blanks and gave them a thorough understanding of something that had only been bits and pieces.

With that being said, I will tell you what I know about the programming that is done to the victims as how it relates to Fallen Angels post and to my story. First, let me explain that the programming is a necessary part of this abuse.

In order for the perpetrators to go undetected they must be guaranteed of total silence from their victims. There is no way they could continue to do what they do, if there victims would go home and tell the neighbors, clergy, anyone. So to insure this silence the offenders engage in a complete and consistent form or brain washing or mind control.

Some experts even believe that it is part of the goal of this programming to produce multiple personality disorder (now called Dissociative Identity Disorder) in the victims. Because MPD or DID insures the memories will be locked away from the consciousness and still guide the victim's life and decisions, it is an effective cloak of silence. Those memories and programming will be readily accessible to the cult with pre-set triggers so they can access on demand the personality they wish to employ while still protecting their secrets.

Multiples even today are rarely diagnosed correctly. They are commonly misdiagnosed as schizophrenic or bi polar and others. Most are drugged and many spend long periods of time in mental institutions. Because of these faulty diagnosis, multiples are hardly listened to and even more rarely believed. The stories they tell are considered to be lunacy.

Fallen Angels dream entails specific methods used by cult members to begin the programming process. Repeatedly survivors across the country and even around the world, have relayed stories of being taken from a trusted adult, given over to strangers and being "buried alive" naked in some form or another. The typical age of the child to be indoctrinated would be anywhere between two to seven years of age. Fallen Angels was taken at four. I was taken at age two.

This experience where the child is put into a "grave" or hole is usually the first step in the indoctrination. The child is buried alive or the whole covered over the top and left there alone with no food or water for days. Also part of this assault is to have creepy things crawling on the child. Those things could be anything from bugs, spiders, and worms to snakes. Anything that will trigger abject horror in the child. For Fallen Angels this torture was spiders and other crawling bugs for me it was snakes, hundreds of snakes.

During the time the child is "buried," one of the perpetrators will return from time to time asking if the child wants out. When the answer is "Yes." the child is left in the grave. When the child finally answers "No" she/he is removed from the hole. Usually upon being removed from the hole, the child is given something to drink. It's never described as water. The common belief is that it is a drug of some kind.

There are three subtle things that have happened here that play a huge part in the picture cult programming paints in the victim's mind. The first of these is about opposites. The right answer is the opposite of what a normal person would think it would be. The only way for the child to be removed from the hole was to say she/he wanted to stay in the hole.

This black is white programming is consistent throughout cult programming. It's effects are pervasive. To this day when under duress, I immediately seek to be alone and push all help away. It is a message I hadn't even realized belonged to my past experiences until I was writing this post. The importance of this to the cult, an isolated victim is more vulnerable.

Next is the dichotomy of being buried only to resurrect later from the grave. Satanism is loaded with such opposites to Christianity. Over and over it's teachings are exact opposites to the teachings of Jesus Christ. Many are intended to demean the Savior and honor the dark one. It is signature satanism.

The third part of the programming is that the offender who removes the child from this grave has now become this child's savior. The child may be reminded of that then or later in their programming, "We are the ones who saved you! We are the ones who care about you." It is a powerful and controlling message. Do what I want and I'll save you. Don't and I can make your life a living hell.

To be continued............

Part 2
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