I'm a crusader. I've been that all my life. Give me a cause to fight for and I'll
jump right in clear up to my neck. Now the cause has to be something to do with someone being a victim certainly, that is a given. I hate bullies and I clearly love the chance to put them in their place.
This has given me lots of opportunities over the years for positive ways to use my anger at being a victim myself. I've still got lots of stored up anger so there's plenty left for me to get off and going for another cause.
I remember as a teenager a new friend claiming abuse. I helped her run away from home. She hide our for maybe a couple of weeks before she finally got tired and went home. In the meantime I brought her food and things to do as well as keeping her company.
I never really did know "what" was happening to this friend. I just took her word for it. Guess in those days I couldn't handle the details but I wanted to help anyway.
These days I know more and can handle more. I get immersed in the details as well. Looking for ways to find solutions so that victims don't end up "going back" like my friend did. I'll always wonder what happened to her.
Currently, I'm in up to my eyeballs on a case of horse abuse. It's not about the original abusers but a horse rescue organization that is really exploiting horses in dire need for their own purposes. I suspect as I dig through this mess, I may find myself involved in even changing legislation.
While it takes a lot of energy, and most of the time I don't feel I have enough of that, it still helps me to feel powerful in a world that used to overwhelm me. It also helps me to turn than anger into something positive. I find as I do these things, I seem to "use" that anger up. Maybe someday I'll have worked on enough causes the anger will all be gone. That's a day I look forward to............in the meantime, I'll just keep working on causes.