Someone recently wrote this comment that reflected my diagnosis. If you can seriously look at your self in the mirror and be okay with the one of many people looking back you then you have some serious issues. I posted the entire message on my private blog but I thought this attack against me by using my MPD or DID as a weapon needed to be addressed. I suspect there are those with a similar diagnosis who would be impacted dramatically by such an assault so I think it's important to examine what it's about.
As I read this statement for the first time I couldn't help but think what a cheap shot this was. Why would someone feel the need to do such a thing?
I also can't help but wonder can another person really feel better about themselves attacking someone like this? What is the purpose of such a statement? Does it really express her feelings or is it designed to make me look bad? Am I supposed to feel defective or somehow less than everyone else because of that reference?
It really makes me wonder.......... not about me, but about her.
I tend to treat others the way I would like to be treated although I do get stymied about how to respond to someone who has taken advantage of me or has been mean to me. Then I defer to not wanting to be an enabler. Holding people accountable for their behavior is the healthiest thing you can really do for them.
Obviously this person doesn't value the same things although masked in the rest of her writing it looked like she did. The use of that one sentence gave away her true character.
So I guess when I'm thinking about this statement and I'm trying to figure out what it means, I'm really trying to figure out what I'm supposed to "do" with it. How do I respond? Or do I respond?
It occurs to me that the statement represents people fighting dirty. Low blows are used to throw people off balance and give the other the upper hand. How do you deal with someone who fights dirty?
I find myself in the middle of a mess with my reputation being trashed and the information is based on untruths. This statement is part of that. I know you can't make people listen to the truth if they don't want to so what do I do with this kind of stuff?
If you're wondering if I am offended by that statement, you're darn right I am! However, it is not because I feel wounded. I am offended that anyone would think poking fun at something as serious as MPD or DID is appropriate.
Putting my current dilemma aside, the most offensive part of her message was that statement. The intolerance of society towards mental illness and its surrounding issues really strikes a cord with me. It's hard enough for victims to recover without society taking pot shots at them. It's just not acceptable.