I used to be plagued by night terrors. I'm not sure how to explain the difference between nightmares and night terrors except by the affect they had on me. I would wake up in a drenching sweat shaken to my very core. My heart would be pounding out of my chest so hard that it's all that I could hear in my ears. It would have a lock on my brain that I had difficulty escaping even once I was awake. Trying to shake it off, I would feel like it had me physically encased in its clutches and that my very life was at stake.
It's been many years since I've experienced one of those night terrors. I can't say that I have missed them at all. Even on occasions that I have had recurring dreams themed like those night terrors they have lacked the intensity of those times. Other than that, I rarely if ever dream that I am aware of. Maybe only a couple of times a year I awake remembering a dream and that memory does not last.
Well, this last week I had a dream that I actually remember. It was disturbing to say the least but nothing like the night terrors of many years ago. Even yet it disturbed me enough that it is haunting me this week so I thought I'd share it with you all to see what you think.
I don't even remember where I was in this dream. All I remember is seeing a female friend (although I can't even tell you who). I was so glad to see her I went up to her to give her a hug. At the moment that I put my arms around her I became aware that she was not what she seemed. Somehow there were male parts and she/he was groping them. Cupping hands on both sides and making their presence obvious as she brushed up against me.
I immediately felt raped. I woke up with my skin crawling and feeling like someone really close to me had raped me maybe even without my knowledge. I also felt like I had really been set up and duped. I was disgusted and terrified at the same time.
That's it. It didn't last long but I remain feeling uneasy like something is about to get me. Other than that I haven't a clue about this thing. So what do you all think?