tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2187441051484747220.post6845160058384278478..comments2023-05-29T07:02:47.281-07:00Comments on My Clouds, My Storms and Multiple Personality Disorder: Halloween from a Cult SurvivorRising Rainbowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04239592070775412669noreply@blogger.comBlogger9125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2187441051484747220.post-90922941495827693342007-10-26T09:08:00.000-07:002007-10-26T09:08:00.000-07:00fallen angel, I commented on your post. I will als...fallen angel, I commented on your post. I will also do a post here about my response to your post. While I am sure just a nod of my head might be validating, I think more information would be helpful to you and others who might be doubting themselves.Rising Rainbowhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04239592070775412669noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2187441051484747220.post-41077388706394809352007-10-26T08:13:00.000-07:002007-10-26T08:13:00.000-07:00I tried to comment yesterday and blogger was actin...I tried to comment yesterday and blogger was acting up...so here I go again.<BR/><BR/>I read this post when you first put it up and I was struck by some similarities to a post I made about 2 years ago. It took me a while to decide if I actually wanted to ask this question or if I am even ready to know the answer. First a little background ...as RA memories surface, I have the belief and support of my T, my partner, and a handful of close friends. They all believe without question... however, I have a hard time believing things myself. I often wonder if these people are simply motivated to belief because they care about me/us (which is in no way a bad thing). None of them with the possible exception of my T, has any reason or experience to base the belief on. I wrote a post about a nightmare that was plaguing me (every night for over a year). It is written as if it is fluid, but it is not. It occures in three fragments, however, always in the same order. Anyway...now that I have rambled on...what I am wondering is if you could read the post and just let me know if it is familiar to you, or not at all familiar. I'm not looking for any details or anything like that. Just validation (if its familiar) from someone who has reason/experience to base that on. The post is graphic in spots so if you are unable to read I understand. http://safeplacedissociativediologue.blogspot.com/2005/09/my-nightmare.html<BR/><BR/>SeraMedicoglia, RNhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01894674563874832457noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2187441051484747220.post-21296465822137934952007-10-21T17:33:00.000-07:002007-10-21T17:33:00.000-07:00keepers, yes, unfortunately the family of victims ...keepers, yes, unfortunately the family of victims tends to protect the offenders and turn on the victim. That is a sad reality.<BR/><BR/>frazzled farm wife, thank you.<BR/><BR/>barn goddess, I'm with you. Most people haven't a clue what human beings are capable of.<BR/><BR/>beccy, most people don't realize what goes on, many don't want to know but the sad fact is that it does go on and will continue until the world is ready to deal with it.<BR/><BR/>I think that it the part that makes me the saddest about my kids(who are all adults), they don't want to deal with it either.<BR/><BR/>If we are only as strong as our weakest link, and the people who perpeptuate this violence are our weakest link, we humans are in real trouble. That is the part that really scares me.<BR/><BR/>anonymous, I wish you inner peace.<BR/><BR/>and jvplanet, the same for you. Healing from such abuse is a long difficult road but it can be done! <BR/><BR/>I hope that both of you can find our way free of the bonds of ritualistic abuse.Rising Rainbowhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04239592070775412669noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2187441051484747220.post-25312683799924963292007-10-20T20:20:00.000-07:002007-10-20T20:20:00.000-07:00Dear Friend,When I was 12, I was raped by 6 men on...Dear Friend,<BR/><BR/>When I was 12, I was raped by 6 men on Halloween night. They were small time Irish Mob. My mother owed them something.<BR/><BR/>The torture, rapes and humiliation went on for 3 days while my mother was drugged up in another room.<BR/><BR/>All of this happend after years of incest by my father. <BR/><BR/>Daddy was a pedophile, mommy was a hooker.<BR/><BR/>I left home when I was 14. I began therapy in my 20's. I raised 3 children by myself. <BR/><BR/>Even with MPD & PTSD I managed to raise my kids up good. I'm raising my second generation of street kids right now. <BR/><BR/>When I was 14 I had a personality called "Mean Jean". (I internalized my father's personality except for the child injuring part. His name was John.)<BR/><BR/>Mean Jean was a practicing Satanist. We were only playing around, but I do know how serious it was now.<BR/><BR/>I'm 53 years old and I have been a Christian since I was 20. God held my hand through 30 years of hell remembering what happened.<BR/><BR/>I spent 1980 in a State Hospital for the full year. I was too suicidal to be left alone for a moment. I became a chronic alchoholic and sadistic self-mutilater.<BR/><BR/>I had to be hospitalized for 4 years straight each Autumn because the air smelt like Winter and bad memories. Every Halloween I ended up in the hospital just because I couldn't handle seeing Halloween candy and decorations in the stores. <BR/><BR/>I made it through the childhood. I made it through the therapy. I'm 53 with 3 beautiful adult children. I'm considered a second and sometimes a first mother for a dozen some-odd kids and young adults.<BR/><BR/>In the end it's true, God never gives you more than you can handle. Some of us are forged in steel. What a blessing to have been able to "forget" so I could try to have some kind of normal life in between crack-ups. <BR/><BR/>PS I'm reading from My Clouds, My Storms and Keepers. I have actually gotten and responded to e-mail from Keepers.<BR/><BR/>Thank you both,<BR/><BR/>Best Wishes,<BR/>jvplanet@comcast.netjvplanethttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05360159802986885227noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2187441051484747220.post-72731025414255207142007-10-20T03:18:00.000-07:002007-10-20T03:18:00.000-07:00thanks we skimmed it but we are in a place whre we...thanks we skimmed it but we are in a place whre we know how lying there feelsAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2187441051484747220.post-38172982166866584372007-10-20T01:09:00.000-07:002007-10-20T01:09:00.000-07:00I for one had no idea this went/goes on, it is hor...I for one had no idea this went/goes on, it is horrific and I totally understand why find any celebration of halloween distressful.<BR/><BR/>I'm sure your family don't mean to cause you harm, they are trying to consider you by celebrating away from you and it's worth remembering that kids like to fit in with other kids.Beccyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00911316644797253921noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2187441051484747220.post-80952406732598934892007-10-19T14:49:00.000-07:002007-10-19T14:49:00.000-07:00((hugs))sometimes others have no idea....((hugs))<BR/><BR/><BR/>sometimes others have no idea....BarnGoddesshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01261723771424005816noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2187441051484747220.post-16804790179991387722007-10-19T14:19:00.000-07:002007-10-19T14:19:00.000-07:00I just can't even imagine what you have gone throu...I just can't even imagine what you have gone through. My prayers go out to you during this difficult time of the year.Frazzled Farm Wifehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10670912081102882168noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2187441051484747220.post-86296294515240571802007-10-18T17:36:00.000-07:002007-10-18T17:36:00.000-07:00our family, our brothers, sister, aunts, uncles, c...our family, our brothers, sister, aunts, uncles, cousins, children, all choose to ignore what was even though most know of the atrocities that occurred not just to keepers, but it seems to make little difference to them as long as their world and their illusions of reality are intact.<BR/><BR/>peace, blessings and understanding to you<BR/><BR/>keepersAnonymousnoreply@blogger.com